Little Review of myself during the process

Throughout the process I feel I have learnt and grown, but have also had come to the harsh realisation that in the real world, this type of devising work is something that may not be accessible to me. . As stated in a previous blog post, my group accommodated for me very well but I feel I did let them down in not going out and seeking some extra support I needed. I am going to look into and finding a way to manage or sort out my energy better during rehearsals; but this is also out of my control.

As a member of the group, I felt I did bring a professional but calm dynamic to rehearsals.  I seemed to be the one, urging people to utilize and schedule our time but was not always forward and assertive enough. I will bring this out in the future though as it is an important necessity to any group. Although I wasn't always the quickest on picking up and creating idea's, which can be frustrating for others members, I felt like conceptually with the idea's I did bring, I made up for it. I thoroughly enjoy critically analysing, and so liked to make sure our piece was stylistically up to a good standard of performance and found myself doing quite a lot of the research that benefited to the piece.

In regards to my contributions outside of the rehearsal room, I helped make and design the final poster, created the events page, cut out the majority of the 'papercut' letters and words that were used and did go into town and purchase all of the torches and majority of props for the piece.

Overall, I feel I have learnt a lot during theatre project; whether that be negative or positive. I feel like I have left this process with a realistic head on my shoulders. I now know what is expected within devising work and how much stamina it takes. Everything you do is completely consumed with thoughts of the process. However, the importance of our topic is what pulled me through and I hope we were able to share some realistic home truth's about the realities of coping with sensory loss. It made every minute of this process worth while and everything I learnt will stay with me for a long time; I hope it does the audience too.

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